Some People Are So Confused

OMG. There’s been so much going on in the news and in life that I hardly know where to begin. Today I read that Raven-Symone said she is “from every continent in Africa except one, and from every continent in Europe except one.” Now, that’s just sad. So so sad. This type of ignorance just […]

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Me Me Me It’s All About Me

This year, yesirree it fucking is. I am going to start doing around here, the same shit I started doing at my last job when it became apparent that they wished I would just have the baby and fucking disappear. THE MINIMUM AMOUNT POSSIBLE TO GET OVER. For the past 8 years, I have devoted […]

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Hold On, I’m Having A Moment Here

Did I mention I stopped taking ALL my meds? Yup. ALL OF IT. I stopped the Lexapro, which I believe I actually wrote about during the process. And then I was just on the Wellbutrin and I felt like I was taking sugar pills, so I stopped THOSE cold turkey, and I guess I could […]

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Today The Dragon Won

I sit here at my computer and feel as though blood should be dripping on the keys. But, my wounds are internal, unseen, untended. Sigh. Today the dragon came and he did not find a white dragon waiting for him. I tried SO hard to be that white dragon, today of all days, but…I failed. […]

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I resumed doing something I haven’t done in a looooong time. Meditation. Add to that a bit more prayer, and I’ve been feeling a lot more…peaceful. My walk-in closet holds my meditative/prayer sanctuary but it had become quite unkempt. Clothes everywhere. An altar whose dust silently reprimanded me every time I looked at it. A […]

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Turning Tides

I owe it to some people who have voiced concern about my welfare to let them know that the tide has turned and the sheer desolation has dissipated. For now. I cannot express how much it means to me to have people reach out. When you are complaining about loneliness, even one voice, one hand […]

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It is only November 8th and this is already shaping up to be one of the most difficult Novembers I have ever experienced. There does not seem to be much to celebrate. A few days ago we got a notice that Punksin has a swim meet on my birthday. Mind you, we are told about […]

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The Valley of the Shadow of Death

October 4th, 9:00 AM: Punksin has been sick since last Saturday [the 30th] and now that she is on the tail end of it, Pudding is starting to show signs of also coming down with a cold. Throughout the night he has not slept well due to a stuffed nose. He awoke with a slight […]

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A Black Wave Approaches

I have one word for you today: ugh. Add to that: blah. And blech. And any other word that implies feeling like utter crap. It’s not physical, although I think that’s coming. Punksin has been really sick for the past couple of days, fever, coughing, blowing her nose enough to go through a whole box […]

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And Then There’s This Volcano On My Face

I don’t know what the hell is going on recently, but my left cheek seems to be a breeding ground for pimples. This is the 3rd pimple I’ve had in the same number of weeks, and all I can say is my usual: WTF? The Tech Guru says its stress. And I guess it…could be. […]

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