Say Hello to Lexapro!
October 13th, 2010
So, did the doctor thing yesterday evening. My last tweet just prior to leaving was asking whether it was okay to show up at a doctor’s appointment drunk. So, I sat in there and talked about my fucking feelings and thoughts and all that other bullshit, and the first thing she nailed is that I [...]
Reasons and Purposes
October 12th, 2010
I saw this post today on a website about depression: I don’t need a reason to kill myself. I need a reason NOT to. I could die at any moment; the tragedy is that I don’t. That scared the shit out of me. Not for the person who wrote it, whom I sincerely hope is [...]
Upswing in the Medication
October 6th, 2010
Several months ago when I went in for my long-overdue physical, my doctor gave me a scrip for Ativan, for the relief of the anxiety I anticipated having when we next went on a plane. Here we are, about 8 months later, and I have not been on a plane from then to now. And [...]
This Time the Fucker Brought Luggage
September 15th, 2010
Claude, I mean. He really blindsided me this time. I didn’t think he was coming. I pulled out the Xanax and felt so fabulous that I thought it was like a shield or some shit – yesterday I felt great. Things were so-so but life seemed…livable. Someone pissed me off, I had to straighten her [...]
World Suicide Prevention Day
September 10th, 2010
That would be today. Who knew? As one of those colored girls who has considered suicide when the rainbow is enuf, you’d think I’d be on top of this. Well, I’m spreading the news. It feels a little weird. It’s not like cancer – no one is raising funds to battle depression. There’s no big-name [...]
The Return of Claude
September 10th, 2010
Claude comes by every now and then. More often than not he disappears during the summer; maybe it’s too hot for him here in the Northeast, I don’t know. He tends to visit more in the fall and deep winter, when days are short and nights are long and cold. That’s when he likes to [...]
Songs From My Past: Someone Saved My Life Tonight
September 2nd, 2010
I love music. I don’t know too many people who hate it, but you know that thing that you did as a teen, lying in your bed in the dark listening to your Walkman and just zoning out or daydreaming? I still do that, just with an iPod. Music takes me away, to where I’ve [...]
A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood
August 27th, 2010
That’s a little Mister Rogers for you. It actually is a beautiful day. A tad too cool for my tastes but I guess that’s what happens when you live in the Northeast; eventually, fall starts to rear its ugly orange, yellow and brown head. So this is when I need to go into overdrive to [...]
Beating the Blues
August 23rd, 2010
Fall is coming, there’s that tinge of coolness in the air, and for me, that means it’s time to get armed with my Weapons of Mass Destruction against the depression that usually hits me full force at this time of year. So, inspired by the incredible Karen Walrond (she of Chookooloonks fame), I decided that [...]
SAMHSA’s Depressive Disorders Info
August 10th, 2010
From the website of SAMHSA (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration), a blurb on depressive disorders: Depression: Beyond the blues Everybody gets the blues sometimes—but depression is very different from the blues. About 18.8 million Americans experience depressive disorders that affect how they sleep, eat, feel about themselves, and live their lives. Depression has [...]
