A Black Wave Approaches

I have one word for you today: ugh. Add to that: blah. And blech. And any other word that implies feeling like utter crap. It’s not physical, although I think that’s coming. Punksin has been really sick for the past couple of days, fever, coughing, blowing her nose enough to go through a whole box […]

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Own It, Fix It, Change It, or Shut the $#&*% Up

Maybe it’s the weather today – it’s raining cats and dogs over here – but I am in what could be called a FOUL MOOD today. Not a depressed mood, just really intolerant of people and their bullshit. You know, and yes, I am about to get up on my soapbox here, I try really […]

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Day 2

Well, here we are on the morning of Day 2. The good news is that I woke up without a headache, which is a huge surprise because the BAD news is that I slept like total and complete shit. Can you explain to me how it is that I can take TWO ibuprofen PM – […]

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Rough Seas Ahead

Okay, full disclosure here: the post in which I said that it was time to bid Lexapro adieu, I wrote that yesterday, but didn’t publish it until today. Meaning that last night was the first night in which I reduced my dosage of Lexapro. Meaning that today was the first day of dealing with it. […]

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Time To Say Goodbye

Sigh. I’ve decided that I am going to try to wean myself off of the Lexapro. I don’t think it’s working anymore, and…I don’t want to continue taking it just because NOT taking it for a while will cause withdrawal symptoms. I’m not sure that this is the BEST time of year for me to […]

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Negative Numbers

That would describe my appetite right about now: it’s in negative numbers. Not only do I not want to eat, but I feel like I want to throw up. Except it’s hard to throw up when you haven’t eaten. I managed to cook this morning, though: pancakes (I make mine from SCRATCH, thank you) and […]

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Stress and My Love Affair with Klonopin

It’s interesting how differently stress affects people. Most people I know tell me that when they are stressed out, they take refuge in food, and of course they end up gaining weight. I am the absolute complete opposite. When I am stressed, I stop eating altogether. I eat because someone reminds me to, or I […]

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Blood Red

I have way too much nail polish. As with most things, I don’t just get a few. I get…LOTS. I swear, I have over 100. At least. Yesterday, I painted my nails blood red. Not the bright crisp, cheerful, almost blinding red that I usually prefer, the one that I associate with my mother’s well-manicured […]

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Claude Has Weapons

Fuck it all to hell, Claude is BACK. That fucker is like a Die Hard movie…he just keeps SHOWING UP. It never ever ends. But this time….this time feels…different. Before, he used to show up and just…hang. If I went into the living room, there he was, sitting next to me on the couch, breathing […]

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Mixing It Up

I’m thinking that taking a Klonopin pill with a nice topped off glass of wine, rather than the advised glass of water, is not such a good idea. And yet, that’s JUST what I just did. JUST…as in a few minutes ago. Today has been a doozy and it’s probably about to get wilder or […]

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