Life is Like a Rollercoaster, Not a Freaking Box of Chocolates
February 6th, 2012
At least…my life is. Somewhat. I have highs… And then I have lows. Unfortunately for me, my lows are pretty effing low. I mean, dig down 6 feet into the ground low. My aunt recently had a birthday party, and I was all gung-ho to help her celebrate but then when the party actually happened… [...]
Stand Down
January 5th, 2012
WE CAN ALL CALM DOWN NOW PEOPLE. THE MEDICATION HAS BEEN FOUND. As it turned out, the medication WAS on the kitchen counter, but if you knew how full of drugs medicine and helpful products my kitchen counter is, you’d understand why it wasn’t easy to find. The damn bottle was actually on its side [...]
Rebuilding the Zen Palace
December 13th, 2011
Yeah, it’s been a few days, huh? I’ve been licking my proverbial wounds, and when that happens, I tend to retreat into silence and introspection. Which is sometimes a good thing, and sometimes not. I’ve been dealing with rejection, a recurring theme – coming to grips with the fact that people that I wanted so [...]
The Cure for What Ails You
November 19th, 2011
You ever had a really shitty day? Of course you have. If you haven’t, I don’t even know how you could relate to ANYTHING I say on here. I’ve been having a shitty few weeks. Medical issues. Relationship issues. Kiddie issues! Mommy issues – as in, MY mommy, not me BEING a mommy. (That would [...]
Snowmageddon is Killing Me
January 23rd, 2011
Wow. I know, I know. It’s been, like, forever. It is really easy for me to write blog updates. It is very hard for me to remember to write blog updates. Sometimes. You know, the drugs, the tiredness, the kids, yadda yadda yadda. And then there’s all this goddamn fucking snow. Let me go on [...]
Life with Lexapro Thus Far
October 14th, 2010
So… I went through most of yesterday feeling as though I was on the smallest nanosecond of a time delay. I didn’t mind that too much, except when I was driving. My appetite was better as well, which is good for basic survival, I suppose, but I don’t want to put on any weight so [...]
Say Hello to Lexapro!
October 13th, 2010
So, did the doctor thing yesterday evening. My last tweet just prior to leaving was asking whether it was okay to show up at a doctor’s appointment drunk. So, I sat in there and talked about my fucking feelings and thoughts and all that other bullshit, and the first thing she nailed is that I [...]
Reasons and Purposes
October 12th, 2010
I saw this post today on a website about depression: I don’t need a reason to kill myself. I need a reason NOT to. I could die at any moment; the tragedy is that I don’t. That scared the shit out of me. Not for the person who wrote it, whom I sincerely hope is [...]
Upswing in the Medication
October 6th, 2010
Several months ago when I went in for my long-overdue physical, my doctor gave me a scrip for Ativan, for the relief of the anxiety I anticipated having when we next went on a plane. Here we are, about 8 months later, and I have not been on a plane from then to now. And [...]
This Time the Fucker Brought Luggage
September 15th, 2010
Claude, I mean. He really blindsided me this time. I didn’t think he was coming. I pulled out the Xanax and felt so fabulous that I thought it was like a shield or some shit – yesterday I felt great. Things were so-so but life seemed…livable. Someone pissed me off, I had to straighten her [...]
