Short and Not So Sweet

There are life updates. Seriously.

I’ve just been in too shitty a mood to go into them. Some of them have been good. Some of them have been not so good. And although in either case I tend to be pretty wordy with the here’s-what’s-happening-in-my-life posts, right now, I am so not in the fucking mood. Which begs the question of why I’m bothering to write in the first place.

I don’t really have an answer for that. I think I might be trying to distract myself and this sure as shit isn’t the way to do it because what do I do here but write about the very things that are depressing me or pissing me off?

So I’m going to keep it short and I’m sorry I’m not feeling very upbeat and thrilled and verbose and all.

So, life in a nutshell:

1. Punksin had her first meet about what, a week ago? She swam in 2 events, and came in last in both. She was pretty bummed, I wanted to cry for her, and Pudding actually DID bawl his eyes out. It was her first competition EVER and thankfully it was in-house; in other words, it was just her team, and it was a good way to get her used to the actuality of competing. She was so nervous but I don’t think it was just nerves. As I’ve already noted, speed is not her strong suit just yet and we have a long way to go in that area. I didn’t expect her to come in first but I hated to see her be LAST because I know it made her feel bad and incompetent and those are feelings I am all too familiar with. She has another meet in 2 weeks, a REAL one this time, and I hope that…she’ll do better.

2. I got one of my birthday presents, a new car that I’ve christened Sebastian. Please don’t send me any comments telling me that boats and cars are named after women. Boats and car are named after women because in the early days they were owned by men. I am not a man. I am a woman, my husband bought me a car for my birthday, and I’ll call it whatever the fuck I want. I have never given my cars female names and I’m sure as shit not starting now. I am very happy about this present but today, at this moment right here right now, that’s not shining through, I know. But I am happy. About THAT, anyhow.

3. I lost my ATM card. In the grand scheme of things, this is minor, but considering that I didn’t discover this until I was AT THE DAMN STORE, I’m pretty pissed. And mad at the world, and mad at myself, because that just seems to be one thing on top of some other things that are combining to make me feel…well, mad and shitty.

4. I still have not gone to the doctor. The dizziness has subsided somewhat; I don’t know, maybe the iron supplement is kicking in?

I’m sure there’s other stuff in there but to be honest with you, I’m on the verge of breaking down right now, my head feels like 12 migraines, and I don’t feel like wetting the keyboard with the tears that are threatening to overflow, so you and I are going to have to do this another time. Take a raincheck, okay?

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3 Responses to “Short and Not So Sweet”

  1. City Girl says:

    sorry you are not up to par. Probably has to do with the cooler weather, days getting shorter, no lexapro and the iron deficiency… a combination that sounds like an emotional cocktail.
    I am glad you got your car and since hubby got it for you you didn’t get to cuss them out about the destination fees. **darn** I was looking forward to reading how that turned out.
    Hope you feel better. Your daughter will get faster. Don’t let her slack on the practices. I bet when she winds you are on cloud nine.
    Feel better chica. You are in my prayers

  2. Leila says:

    Well, I did do the negotiating, so I got to do LOTS of that. I did all of the grunt work but hubby wrote the check. 🙂 I drove them insane. We actually got a new/used car, so I did all of the inspection, but the car is a 2012 that only had 6K on it in miles and it’s pretty spanking new. I will, at another time, regale you with what a pain in the ass I was to every dealer we went to. I am sure you will enjoy it. I believe Punksin even took pictures of me when I was under one of the cars we were looking at.

  3. City Girl says:

    OH GOD you have to post those photos when you tell the story. LOL can’t wait!!