Habitual Line-Steppers
September 30th, 2010
This is one of my favorite lines from the saga of Rick James as told by Charlie Murphy on the Dave Chappelle show. I get so tired of habitual line-steppers. I have one in my life who is, unfortunately, a family member and from the time we were teens she has continually crossed the line [...]
Songs From My Past: Watching You
September 29th, 2010
I used to love this song. I’m not quite sure why, but I just know I thought it was hot. Actually, I do know why: aside from the incredibly sexy beat of this song, I think I had delusions that someone would actually imagine that it could apply to me one day, that I would [...]
Death, Grief and Payback
September 27th, 2010
Wow, this has been a very long six days. Last Wednesday, as I watched the kids run amok at their weekly homeschool camp session, I got a phone call that I knew was coming, that I dreaded receiving, and that knocked the wind out of my sails despite all of the anticipation. A very close [...]
Songs From My Past: In the Morning
September 22nd, 2010
This song was the first non-nursery song that my little girl loved. As we drove to school, I’d play it and she would sing along lustily and happily, fudging the words as only a 2-year old can. It’s 4 years later and she doesn’t even remember liking this song, which makes me wistful; she looks [...]
Songs From My Past: What’s Going On
September 19th, 2010
Today is my mom’s birthday. We rarely speak anymore; her depression is hostile and cold and after cutting me off completely 4 years ago we only recently regained a contact that is still strained and superficial. Still…she is my mother. I feel her influence every single day. I’m a Yankee fan because of my mom. [...]
Either Your Pussycat Has a Nosebleed or There’s A Football Team in Your Vagina
September 17th, 2010
I always thought naming your period like a person was stupid. Yes, I know - this from a woman who visualizes her depression as a 9-foot black dragon named Claude. Whatever – I never claimed to be completely logical. As far as my own monthly drama goes, I never saw my period as a person [...]
Songs From My Past: The Beautiful Ones
September 15th, 2010
The memories and feelings are so loaded on this one that to speak too much on it would feel like desecration. The days in which this song – indeed, this whole album – felt like a script of my life are almost 30 years gone, and yet when I hear this song my heart still [...]
This Time the Fucker Brought Luggage
September 15th, 2010
Claude, I mean. He really blindsided me this time. I didn’t think he was coming. I pulled out the Xanax and felt so fabulous that I thought it was like a shield or some shit – yesterday I felt great. Things were so-so but life seemed…livable. Someone pissed me off, I had to straighten her [...]
Why What You Wear Matters
September 13th, 2010
Okay, so this whole Inez Sainz thing. Which you can read about here cuz I’m already too far into my rant to go back and explain it to you. I get that she is a female sports reporter who is just trying to do her job. And I agree that she should be able to [...]
Songs From My Past: The Most Beautiful Girl
September 11th, 2010
This song actually came up in therapy. I was 3 years old when this song came out, and I always imagined that my father was sitting in the clouds up in heaven, looking down and singing this song to me. Then my mom came home from work one day when I was 7 and told [...]
